Senritsux

I remember carving your name The blood The tears, The years that seem to pass me by While I laid in bed frozen Only to find It's only been half a year, It seemed like an eternity passed me by, Then I saw those familiar eyes I could cry out of happiness Something I had not been familiar with before, Many tears were shed Promises were broken Promises were made Some went on unfulfilled, My first real battle came not too long after I realized we were far from perfect, Then came the loss of our loved one And that shattered us both, I can't even look at myself in the mirror anymore… Now I look back And wonder why did you

Lying on the cold grass Frosted as it is Death is near and ready to cut me with glass I will become his He will take me this time He will carry me into the ocean I will be rewarded with his immortal painful kiss Cut me up without hint of regret I will look him in the eyes I will drown Look at the world once more before I'm in the dark and finally put to rest

The silent season is here It's colder than last year The trees look broken Memories…are only there to remain Orbs Come... in And it smells like death Back...then she wouldn't have made this choice Her eyes stay shut Why won't you wake up? The cold is as brutal as her heart The flares are brought in by the snow They linger there Indicernable to my eyes But the feeling is there Visible only to her While the winter passes by she lays there With her eyes shut Never once blinks Nor opens them for a peek I sat next to her Day after night Saying salvation is on the way I gave her a life she never chose Spring came But s

                     Why is it that it feels like forever                                   "helpless"                                   "confused"                    wandering and drifting from place to place                            unhappy everywhere I go                       where is the happiness I once held              so pure and sweet like the water that falls from the sky                   tainted but lustful like the blood in the snow                        That love used to belong to me so long ago                               where....has it gone?                                    ............          

                                                                                   awake and falling           asleep and crawling         either way I'm not getting anywhere           not soon at least          I'm drifting farther and farther           in the cold endless dark         forever being swallowed up by the shadows          the shadows we call monsters;         the shadows that take human form        the ones that chew you and then spit you out                till nothing is left for you          crawling will take forever          falling will be an eternity         in the end it shall take me somewher

Your promises, Your kind words of love, the lovely atmosphere of happiness my tears, and joys my frustrations, our memories, you're acknowledgement what was it worth.....? , You intended on breaking them since the start You left me behind and betrayed me You trampled over my undying love and trust, Shall I despise you and wish you away, I think I'll forgive you just once more And bury you deep in my heart , Even though it will bring unbearable pain I have my lesson learned, And I have kept it deep in me So I never forget